Recently I have been asking myself, now that I am a wife and mother, now what? I have this question because for so long I had a deep desire to become a mother. I am pretty sure it was a calling. I am over joyed that it has finally come to pass. There was a time that I did not think that this would happen, but that is a whole other story for another time. Now, that a few major things were scratched off "the list," I am reevaluating my goals. The fact that a lot of my dreams have been realized, I understand that I need to dream bigger and add to "the list."
I am sure most of us know what "the list" is. it is something that we may or may not have been written down, that is burned into our brain, and tells us the way our life is supposed to go. It can be a dream board, or mental timeline that urges us on and helps us make the decisions that we need for life. I have learned that there are times that I need to not put so much pressure on "the list" and live life. I also had to leave room for God to insert His will for my life and be okay with that. I have learned that what God has planned for you is actually better than you can ever dream of and its best to follow Him. I definitely learned this the hard way.
As I look back over the last few years its come to my attention that when I let go of the way I think it should happen usually it comes to pass in ways that I did not think it would. My best friend tells me often that, "God's time is the best time." I use to cringe when she said that, because I wanted God's time to be on my time, which I thought was the best time. Now when she says it I smile and agree. Since I am in the phase of dreaming and adding to "the list" I now know and understand that its perfectly okay to desire things, but I am now have learning to trust Him and have a little more faith.